Now I feel very, very drained and tired, but this will be a busy week. Essentially being my own publishing company is a fair amount of work, even with delegating everything to experts. I suppose I'm not doing much more actual work than I was doing while working with a regular publisher, but it weighs more on me. Before, they might run stuff by me, but I didn't have any more say than they wanted me to have. They might or might not take my suggestions. Now, though, the buck stops with me. If I don't like something, it doesn't happen that way, and there's a lot of responsibility to that. It's also a big mental shift to make. So far, I've liked most of what's been done, but when I haven't, I've had to remind myself that it's okay to say so and that they have to listen to me. I'm mostly just trying to stay out of the way and let the experts do their thing, but I do have to make the ultimate decision. The other difference is that the timeline is seriously compressed. We're doing in a few months what would take a regular publisher a year or so to do.
I may have to hand in my geek card because I didn't see The Avengers this weekend, and I have to admit that I'm not overly keen to see it. It's one of those things that I feel like I ought to be into but that I could actually take or leave. I've never been all that into the whole superheroes thing, I guess, aside from that mad crush I had on Robin in the old Batman series when I was in second grade. There are flavors of geekdom, and that isn't one of mine. I also don't do games of any kind. I don't enjoy computer games, video games, card games or tabletop games and I've never played roleplaying games. I might occasionally play solitaire (with cards, not on a computer), and when I was a kid I liked to play Payday against myself, using different money-management strategies for each game piece to see which one did best. Otherwise, I get bored with any game within about two minutes. On the other hand, I read fantasy novels, can discuss Star Wars, Star Trek, Firefly, Doctor Who, etc., and go to conventions, so I think I'm plenty geeky enough, even if I do have weak spots. I'll just never win the gold medal in the all-around geekiness competition. I'll have to be an event specialist.